I HAVE RETURNED

Sorry for the unexpected hiatus! After a few months of weaning myself of being completely dependent on other fashion bloggers for my sense of style, I realized that I don't need to read any of it. My style is totally lazy, random, and generally whatever I want to throw on that day. I hated meticulously planning my clothes the night before. It came to the point where I spent an hour deciding my clothes.

I realized that I don't have the same passion and interest in fashion as I do with cosmetics and just other things I do regularly. So, even though it's not quite the new year, I've decided to revamp my blog. I won't be consistently sticking to one subject like clothes and fashion, but I might talk about viral videos (like Jizz in my Pants, anyone?! loved it.) and my make-up for the day.

This is my blog, a representation of who I am. I can't confine my schizophrenic personality to one subject! Hopefully there will be a common theme throughout my blog, and when I see that there is, I'm just going to assume that's my true identity.

Happy holidays, everyone!

Throwin' Up Your Sign

This past Saturday night, three classrooms burned down including the special ed room. I heard from the rumor mill that it was a gang-related arson.

I HATE MY HIGH SCHOOL BECAUSE FOR A RELATIVELY NICE SUBURBAN TOWN, IT IS RIDDLED WITH GANGSTERS THAT MAKE ME FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE AT SCHOOL.

I wore my uber comfortable rose-printed scarf on Monday, and was asked by school administration to take it off. I understand that wearing gang colors (red vs. blue at our area) is unsafe, but srsly?! I was wearing oxfords, a ruffle grey dress, and a dark grey drapey cardigan. Did I look like a gang member? Obviously.

The next day when I had completely forgotten that I was a gangster, I wore my new blazer and thought I looked hella good. I started feeling uncomfortable even before lunch, so I took it off and stuffed it in my locker ):

Black shirt: Gap; Grey tube dress (folded to be a skirt): Hollister; Velvet beaded belt: mom's closet; Red blazer: Marshall's
I just wish that school could be a safe environment where what color I wear determines how safe I am. I rather just worry about how other catty girls think of my clothes and not whether I'm going to be shoved in the halls or even possibly shot. Last year, there was a gang-related shooting at the doughnut shop across the street from my school DURING LUNCH when high school students were inside buying food! RIDICULOUS.

In other news, I thrifted a skirt last week and I'm going again, with a friend, tomorrow!

Tank: Gap; Skirt: thrifted; Necklace: MAC Cosmetics

Today

Don't you hate it when you wear an awesome outfit and then don't get any pictures of it!? I decided to recreate via MS paint haha :)


Black blazer: Macy's Juniors; Sequined grey tank: H&M; Red jersey skirt: Forever 21 (this is actually a halter dress that I wrapped around to make a skirt-- v. complicated to describe); Black bow belt: H&M; Black flats: Urban Outfitters

Recently

Tube: cut up from old Romeo + Juliet Couture leggings; Beaded racerback: Urban Outfitters; Denim skinny jeans: Paris Blues; Necklace: MAC Cosmetics
I went to Berkeley to visit a friend, eat the best frozen yogurt ever (clearly, I am addicted to froyo), and buy NOTHING. I go to Telegraph and I leave empty-handed. Somebody tell me where the cute vintage stores are at?! Oh, and the American Apparel there was a total disappointment. I was expecting some kind of epic store front and I get this tiny closet. You suck again, AA.


Blazer: J. Crew; T-shirt dress: Volcom; Scarf: mom's; Oxfords: Payless
I LOVE Mims from lookbook.nu. She is a darling and dresses so well. I tried to copy my favorite outfit of hers, but she wore a white parka and I only have a white oversized jungle-explorer blazer from my mom. Didn't really go with the rest of the outfit, will try to integrate blazer into other clothes.


Cardigan: Gap; Dress: Volcom; Scarf: thrifted; Oxfords: Payless
Who else watched Gossip Girls tonight?! I didn't really watch for the fashunz today since I was multitasking (psychology homework and lookbook.nu) and just listening, but woah okay. The writers like to make us confused out of our minds with these TWISTS and scandals. I think I should let everybody know that I am, in fact, in love with Chuck Bass. And I thought Jenny's design on the form was no bueno, to be honest.


Cardigan: Gap; Tank: Gap; Skirt: Abercrombie and Fitch; Oxfords: Payless
If anyone was wondering, I'm holding my lamp to control the light better. The yellow thing is an LV ribbon that comes with gift boxes that I got for free when I volunteered at a gift-wrapping booth. Sadly, there are times where I think this is the only LV I will ever own.

I'm feeling a lot more positive about finding my own style :)

Crisis

I feel like I'm having a minor style identity crisis here. I've realized that I don't have a personal and individual style, and I only just copy what I see. I mean, people do that, but it just doesn't feel like myself. I was considering to take a break from reading all of my favorite bloggers, but I think what I'm going to do is just really focus my blog as a record of my journey to find my own style. I just get so overwhelmed by trends, apparent fashion "necessities" (those Victoria's Secret studded booties, anyone?), and other people's styles.

What I would really want is just somebody to talk to or to be a mentor when I'm trying to find my own style. It's incredibly frustrating to spend an hour trying to decide what to wear, and I don't think people should do that. I want to be able to love every piece of clothing in my closet, and have pieces that work with each other.

Things I like, no matter the current trend:
-Plaid. I can't get enough of it.
-Showing leg (with and without tights)
-Black shoes, especially heels
-A-line skirts
-Elegant clothes. I really like ballerina inspired wear, or just dance inspired clothes.
-Bright prints

If I start with a list of what I like, I think I can build from there. I don't know. I'm just overwhelmed and confused.

Back to School

Today was my first day of school! I'm a senior in high school. To be honest, one of my favorite things to do on the first day is to check other people's outfits out since I know everyone spends forever in front of their closet, thinking about what to wear on the first day back. Too bad I didn't have enough time to snap some pictures of some outfits I saw today! I'll try to do that sometime since there are some interesting people at my school. INTERESTING.

What I wore:




Top: Lillith; Belt: mom's; Jeans: Paris Blues; Sandals (they are the type that lace around your ankle): J. Crew; Bag: H&M; Bangs: myself ):

And my hybrid pencil case/calculator that I've had since I was 7 that I still use:


It's from Ikea!

Also, I got my circle lens contacts delivered to me yesterday. Circle lenses are those huge contacts that make your pupils appear bigger. Purely for cosmetic use, but you can get prescription lenses as well. I got a pair of green ones :D


STRESS from college, huge school project that lets you graduate or not, AP classes, color guard auditions, and trying to make friends. It's freaking me out already gahhhhh. I probably won't be updating as often because of this school shenanigans.


Photo credit: CHO CHO CHO

Student by day...

Batgirl by night!





I wanted to be Batgirl, who made kicking butt look so cool and easy in a skintight leather bodysuit, for my entry in a contest in a MAC Cosmetics community on Livejournal.

Mask:
Anastasia Go Brow pencil
MAC Bare Study paintpot
MAC Deep Truth eyeshadow (for the main color)
MAC Submarine eyeshadow (shadow)
Jane Clubbing eyeshadow (shadow & liner)
MAC Julep eyeshadow (highlight)
MAC Electra eyeshadow (highlight)
MAC Waternymph eyeshadow (to blend Deep Truth w/ Julep)
MAC Surreal eyeshadow (highlight)

Face & Lips:
Rimmel bronzer in Sun Dance
MAC Blankety lipstick
Prestige Tomango lipliner

I wish I owned something black leather to slip into so I could run around the house like this.

Photo credit: CHOCHOCHO

Thrifting

I went to Thrift Town today after my journalism workshop. I love how it's conveniently located right next to my school :)


I know what you're thinking, but I did not see the shoulder pads and think, "Oh sweet, shoulder pads! Must get this." I'm going to trim them off, and then shorten the hem to about my knee. It's entirely silk (even though the skirt looks like suede in the picture?) and I love it. $4


Alright, this one I'm not so sure of. I saw the print and thought it was very fun. It feels very dated still... Any ideas? I belted it in this picture. $3


The very sheeeeeer short-sleeved blouse is so comfortable, but it was my most expensive purchase at $8. The scarf reminded me a bit of Blair Waldorf (GG comes back in a week!!! YES.), but I'm going to have to experiment with it so I can avoid looking like my flight attendant auntie. $.99

In the waiting line.

I went to pick up my senior class schedules today-- also known as MAZE day at our school. After being away all summer and forgetting what the people at my school are like, I came home irritated and sweaty. There were massive lines patrolled by ASB (associated student body) officers, but it didn't stop the clearly mature(!!!!) students from cutting.

I honestly wouldn't mind waiting a few more minutes in line just so the assholes would go ahead of me and leave me alone, but I was warm, fatigued from a busy night (I stayed up... doing pretty much nothing except making postcards), and wearing admittedly comfortable but still tall-ish heels.